For what am I praying to God ?
(Translated into English by Bauhinia)
Right in the time of writing this reflection, I am fervently praying for a close doctor friend of mine who is dying according to the doctors taking in charge of his case.
You must have remembered the story I told you nearly a month ago about the this doctor, musn’t you ? He gave 3 guys who were actually robbers a lift on his way home from work. Then, he was thrusted 3 times with one into his heart causing it to heavily bleed. He was taken to the hospital under deep unconsciousness. The emergency and follow-up treatment were best provided to save his life ; however, they just got little hope for his recovery. It’s in the time of nothing to be done by all doctors that he was AMAZINGLY SAVED by the “DIVINE DOCTOR”. After that, he made such a quick recovery to the others’ great astonishment. Another thing we should know that before the rob, he had found out the urinary cancer inside his body. He kept it as a secret because he doesn’t want to see worry from his family members. The wound from the rob just contributed to making the cancer more serious due to his lack of strong immunity.
All of these have helped us believe strongly that his recovery is really A MIRACLE FROM GOD. Nevertheless, he had to confront a surgery in which some body parts have to be cut off . 3 days ago, again he had to deal with another surgery. It’s obvious that he has experienced terrible mental and physical sufferings.
I remember that before the surgery he still talked to me and then cried a lot. Despite a lot of worry and anxiety, he offered all his fate into the intercession of Our Blessed Lady and God’s hand. He expressed his desire to be baptized so as to become a Catholic. That surgery lasted more than 7 hours. Since then, he has been under unconciousness … This evening, a doctor notified me that he is dying with no feeling inside half of his body. A lot of people around me are in unity of prayers though some of them don’t know him or meet him. Even some of them wish to ask God to give him Grace to be given to them. What kind-hearted people !
This is the first time I’ve felt so close in connection with him when praying for such a miserable friend. I prayed so earnestly to God as if I were him. I myself also asked God to take away some Grace of mine to give him as long as it is in God’s will.
I’ve prayed… I’ve hoped… I’ve waited for something hour by hour…
The more I deep down in my heart to see God’s Love , the more I can feel what people around me are suffering. The more I immerse deeply in God’s Love, the more remarkably close my life gets connected with the others’… However, he is still unconscious in the bed. The prayers are being kept in people around… The technology advancement seems hopeless for him now. Everybody that loves him keeps holding him in their prayers. I do, too , yet with the increasing anxiety of waiting. But, I really don’t know what I should pray for or what I should do next. I realize I can do nothing but keep praying to God for him. But for what should I pray ?
In the depth of my heart, I heard the voice of Jesus Christ to myself : “If you then, who are wicked, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your heavenly Father give good things to those who ask him.“(Matt 7:11). But what should I ask for when “Your Father knows what you need before you ask him.” (Matt 6:8) Oh, my Loving God, the only thing I would like to do now is to trust in You and put my friend’s destiny into Your Divine Providence because You know what is the best fit each of us. AMEN.
Joseph Việt, O.Carm
11.10P.M Mar 16,2011
Originally in Vietnamese: https://only3minutes.wordpress.com/tieng-viet/c%e1%ba%a7u-nguy%e1%bb%87n-gi-day/